Tons of sadness popped into my heart and I almost burst into tears when I took a glance at the bill that I have to pay the water and electricity for the past two months. It was around five minutes ago, a man knocked on my door and informed me to pay for the water and electricity. I couldn't utter even a single word as soon as I glimpsed the bill and the cash in my hand and you have no idea how awkward I was at that moment and then I have to squeeze a stingy smiling face, politely asking: Can I pay it on Saturday? Oh my god, I can’t believe I even can’t afford it!!! How can I be like this??? I never thought I would be involved in such a predicament! Seems I am the apple of the jinx's eyes, I have been ill twice since I came here and the toilet is broken, vent fan is broken, even the sewer broke down once, traffic card is used up and I bet my phone service is gonna be limited in a couple of days and the crucial thing is I have to pay for the rent in about two weeks. My mind is hollow now; I don't know what to do, what should do! I came here just for a change, for a better life, if all these are what I will get, can I give them up?? I know I have to try and I tried. I tried to attempt new things, I tried to work hard as a part-time medical representative and gain some experiences in the pharmaceutical filed in which I never set foot so that I can strive for a brighter future, but I seem to be screwed, I tried to be strong, I tried to be confident, I tried to believe good luck will come to me some day, but the fact is I’ve been out of luck all the time. I really don't know when it’ll end? Do I have to be frustrated time and time again till my faith of life dies out??? I know it’ll be less interesting if everything gets done successfully, but I do think it’s way tooooo much now!!!
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