We try and have a date night once a week. And we'll sit down, we'll put some music on. We can have English music, Turkish music. There's a bit of dancing. Even at bedtime we'll Skype and we'll go to sleep with the phones next to the pillow on Skype. The intimacy is really difficult. Sometimes I just want a cuddle. There's nothing in the world to explain this. Being apart is so, so hard. I really can't wait to call. I can't wait to see Danielle's face, and all the kids, and hear their voice. Well go on, tell me what you did at school today? I did maths.
I've lost a lot of family members and a lot of friends through choosing to go down the route of being with Gorkem. People will say to me, you know: 'I don't know why you're getting upset you've chosen to be with a foreigner.' I can't help who I've fallen in love with. Papa's made it. Did Papa make the paratha in Bangalore? We had our daughter two years ago. And we've been very happily living in India with us both working in India. We'd always thought about moving back to the UK at some point. The impetus came now because my maternal grandmother who I'm very close to and had a really important role in my upbringing stopped being able to fly for medical reasons. Essentially, what's happened is that my daughter has been deprived of both of her parents. My work is over two hours from my home.