I used to enjoy looking at the moon when I lived in the countryside. The pleasure, however, was hard to regain after I moved to the city. I’ve made considerable efforts to relive the experience but have never succeeded.
The Goddess of the Moon is too grudging to the crowded city. She roams behind a curtain of thick cloud, and instead of giving out a purifying brightness, sends to the eager citizens merely a pale dim light. Even the Mid-Autumn Festival can’t make her generous. She hangs high in the sky, shrouded in veils of stars, and looks down at us as if from several galaxies away. Her light is thin and misty, like the pale face of a sick girl. The earth is engulfed in a haze of meagre rays – not a single silvery beam can be seen. For the past three years, on Mid-Autumn Eve, I have searched for her and each year have been disappointed.
In the end, I decided to give up watching the moon from the balcony of my city flat. I found the forest of factory chimneys and electric lights profoundly dispiriting. I wrote to my mother and sadly concluded that the city moon on Mid-Autumn Eve was no better than a street lamp.
然而,我曾经有过怎样亲近光辉的明月呵。
How different from the intimate moon I had known before! One scene I remember in particular.
She came to me one quiet August night in my village on the island as I was kneeling by a stream in a gentle breeze, combing my long wet hair. Ripples across the surface of the stream distorted the reflection of my slender body and my smiling face in repose after a hard day’s toil. Soothed by the gentle breeze and the night sky, I gradually became aware of an all-pervading radiance spread around me. I stopped combing my hair and turned around. The moon had risen; her golden splendour brilliant as the sun. I was awestruck. How magnificent she looked! She rose from the infinite sky, yet seemed so close that I felt I could almost touch her. It looked so fat and round that it seemed it would burst open at any moment. Its soothing golden rays spread across the terrain, gilding rooftops, branches of trees, mountains and streams. As a breeze blew over, the golden rays swirled all around me. I gazed in fascination at the marvellous spectacle. I was engulfed in a golden dreamscape, in which everything twinkled and swayed with life.
Gradually the moon’s golden lustre faded and turned white. At the same time, it sailed higher in the sky. The brilliant whiteness of her light held me motionless with awe; she looked just like the mid-day sun, or a newly-minted shiny mirror. Under her silvery light, night soon took on the characteristics of day. Wisps of willow shimmered on the distant dyke, and twigs from the laurel tree seemed to stretch towards me – tenderly but urgently. Suddenly, I no longer viewed this as merely a golden dreamscape; but was deeply conscious that this tiny island, with its gentle breeze, clear sky and endless fertile fields, was a wondrous place in which to live.