2009年3月16日 Mon 天气 多云转阴

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Crush II

恋 (中)

"As long as she is satisfied, happy and smiling all the time, in front of me, whenever I see her for everything I can give her, I shall earn." Observes him. Everyday He comes early and clean every daily chore in advance. As time flys he is getting experienced to assume what ought to be shared by the sister he always obsesses, even at the expense of irriating her, usually deeming a 22 year old boy can not perfectly tackle the complicated interrelationship of this society. While what just attracts the little boy the most is her mild, gentle temper that never blames him and treats him like an underling. Even if she's really out of her temper, she just admonished him gently but earnestly with a elder sister's tone, a way appearing to be quite beyond word and ambiguous intimacy between the people.

他觉得：为了她我愿意做一切。看着她时，只要她幸福开心。时时能看到她的笑容，我就满足了。他天天来得很早，不用安排就把所有的工作都做好。随着时光的流逝，他越来越迷恋姐姐，甚至开始越俎代庖地为她分忧解难。这样的做法自然让姐姐觉得甚为难堪。她认为在这充满了纷繁芜杂人际关系的地方，一个22岁的小男孩还不足以对一切应付自如。不过姐姐的和蔼可亲的性格决定了她从来不会因为他自做主张而迁怒于他，也从不把他当作自己的下属。这一点也是最为令他敬仰和爱慕的。即使她真的生气了，至多也就是稍作姿态以算是严厉但和气的口吻对他略加责备。此时此刻，两人的关系溢于言表。尽管话语不多，但似乎都沉浸在那晦涩的亲昵之中。

Thanks to the reply from sister's cell phone he shortmessaged a day ago, his effort to develop their relation further seems working. A conflicting but overwhelming feeling he bore when made up his mind to whisper as if to her ear via the mobile phone pumps his heart with the emotion and affection growing as time goes by. A crush is coming up from the bottom of his heart. Till then, he begun to know what the term of crush means, an unreasonally temporary, frantic, often uncontrollable obsession over a girl, lady, or a housewife more exactly, a 6 year older woman he can't helping missing and to be enchanted. He knows that's somewhat impossible though, both sides by any mean avoid believing the relation between them is just colleague, at most the good friendly colleage, rather than the inappropriate ambiguity, obscurity that most likely turns thing into a malfunctinoed love out of wedding lock, though, it can more or less be, if the sister and brother keep going like that.

他觉得要使两人的关系进展下去，该做点什么，于是昨天给他发了短信，她回了。在发短信前，他也颇为矛盾。可是自己心里日久渐深的爱恋之情使他无法控制自己。也促使他用短信向姐姐诉说一些自己当面不敢说的话。这样的方式让他觉得自己就像是在姐姐的耳边和她互诉衷肠一般。从那时起，他渐渐明白了词"crush"的含义：那是一种难以言表的、一时冲动的、执念的，常常是难以自制地对一个女子产生的爱恋之心。或者更确切地说，他爱慕的对象是一个女人，一个有夫之妇，一个比他年长六岁的有夫之妇。可他实在无法控制自己对她日思夜想，倍加迷恋。尽管从某种程度上来说他也知道那不现实。其实两人都在竭力回避些什么，认为双方只是同事关系，最多也就是较好的同事。但，如果两人还是这么以一种卿卿我我、暧昧的方式相处下去的话，那这种关系极有可能发展成为一场畸形的婚外恋。

To be continued...