these days, i feel that i am losing my passion of life day by day, i always feel gloomy and regretful.i try my best to tell myselft that i should study hard and work hard for my future because i am so young now. i would still have many chances to get everything which i want. but i often get up late and watch TV for many hours. then i blame myselft that i waste much time .i really want to change this state.

[ 本帖最后由 Wupeng 于 2007-7-5 00:05 编辑 ]

why do you have that feelings, set a goal for yourself ,talk to yourself 'i must do like that' everyday ,donnt think bad things. come on

I can fully understand you ,beleive me 'cuz i've been there myself ,matter of fact ,i 'm noteven sure i am out of it now.But you don't really have to be gloomy, i think that feeling comes from the fact that deep inside you don't trust yourself, that you don't think one day you can acheive "things", same reason why you blame yourself of wasting time .so it is really not passion that are fading away from you ,it is faith, you are losing your faith. have a little faith dude, that way you can live a better life .i don't have a goal, a dream of ,maybe becoming rich or marring a beautiful lady, but i always beleive that something good will happen to me one day. call it optimistism, or anything else ,i don't mind ,why not ,why making life miserable . after all,it is the only thing we got , wouldn't it be easier to live it in a brighter way?

I think you are right,i really agree with you more. i begin to doubt my mind about life and future which fixed in my heart for almost twenty years these days, moreover, i feel that my willpower is very feeble,i always can't insist on doing something hard which i strongly want to do well.lately, i haven't insist on studying english for a long time. i want to get a opportunity to be a member of a japanese bank, because i want to develop in bank industry.but i have worked in IT field for almost two years, I would still be a IT clerk if i have chance to enter the bank. i need to work hard and seek chance to be a member of financial field. maybe i would be to take part in graduate entrance exam for a master degree of financial field.i really hope i would be a member of investment bank, i really hope i would have a good future in my life.but it seems very difficult for me to realize the goal. it is a long long way for me to go hard.

Now you said more about yourself ,and we know better ,which is great.i see you already planed a lot ,you're really in to financial and bank and stuff like that ,and considering a post-graduate entrance exam.my question is :wouldn't that be too much ? I mean ,man you already got a job in IT field,and follow it would probably lead to a great and sucessful career and thus a wonderful life.But it seems you don't get enough and seeking a better one.Please don't get me wrong, i 'm not a phycal ,and i'm not trying to be critical ,believe me i'm in no better position than you. The thing is , after all that i 've been through, i could finally got my mind clear with something. now all these i'm going to say are 100 percent personal, you have every right to disagree with them.People should live a simple life ,as simple as we could ever get ,that way it cost least ofour attention to worry about something that is possibly nothing to worry about. like career, i'm not saying people should not care about what they do for a living ,but i'm abosulutly against that famous saying"make your passion your profession".why should we do that, professional means the ability and neceesity to break things down to every detailed pieces,look what all those athlite pros do in their everyday training ,and think about our daily routine in office or anywhere we work.Can you really bear it if what used to be one of your dreams ,something that you could do to relex yourself ,and find a little bit peace in it once and for all be a boring ,repeating, scrutinizing job? well i can not let that happen to me.so i choose to do my job ,and live my life.i guess i've been drifting apart from where i was at the begining of this post ,what i'm trying to say is: you might wanna try think less of career ,and future and massive things like that, (don't give up totally of course ,)and maybe pause to plan for a while ,instead of which you just concentrat on what comes up in front of you right now, get that done ,follow your own pace,take your time ,step by step .one day when you could stop and catch a breath ,guess what! you 're already there.

I suggest you to find a partner or a team to study together. That would be fun and interesting. What you need is interest that leads you to your final goal.