I am thinking whether to be a Christian. Being a believer to God is a complicated thing. You have to control yourself, exterminate demonic thoughts in your heart. But how can we do that? We are just humans.

However, hloding a believe is good. I hope I could be finnaly absorbed by God. Letting him into my life. and refresh me with a new one. I have no idea what I am talking about. Just a Hope.

 

Busy all the time with paper, linguistic paper and French stuff. feel like choky. and not willing to work. Actually I can never get rid of  this issue. I am trying ,but not hard enough. I am shamed of myself.

Saying always is easier than doing. that is who I am. and just who I am.